So I don’t make a habit of posting really personal bits on my blog but I heard that it might help my mindset to write down how things are heading into 2020 – inspired by 2019 year round-ups.
2019 was generally a year of ups and downs for me and I didn’t make any new year resolutions for it. You’ll find write ups of some events I went to etc though! So apart from some wonderful trips I did have some health problems arise. I have always been a glass half full kind of girl rather than half empty, so I just tried my best to get on with the day to day.
The thing is, the day to day started to feel hard for me. My sleep was poor and my joints acted up, I also put on alot of weight and personally put it down to inactivity – despite swimming once a week and attempting the odd half a hour walk every other day or so.
In March of 2019 I woke up one morning to an excrution pain in my shoulder, which required an emergency visit to the docs. I had mentioned my sleep not being great at the time and aches in other joints – so after an arthritis test I was given the all clear, had a basic physio check and told to check back six months later if I had anymore problems…
My shoulder is still not 100%, but it’s not in pain – just a few clicks which apparently is not anything to worry about. Over that period though I noticed I was gaining more weight and had hit the heaviest I’d ever been in my life, my ‘lady cycle’ was also way out of whack, but I had that issue for years anyway. My joints are clearly under strain, and after feeling I needed some guidence, I visited the docs again just before christmas and had more tests…
It surfaced that my magnesium levels were on the verge of being lower than normal (I had horrid headaches on and off last year) and that I have higher than normal levels of testosterone (as a brief overview). Turns out that I have actually got polycystic ovary syndrome (PCOS) and may well have been living with the condition for some years. I’ve been told there isn’t a cure and that the best start to improve my situation would be to lose weight – with a condition that is actually hard to do so. I now have to wait six weeks or so for a NHS scan to rule out other things.
So, I guess the intention of this update was to get things off my chest and explain why I haven’t posted much, why I stopped streaming games suddenly last year, dropped cosplay projects, why my podcast halted and why I lost the zest to be my typical creative self.
Okay, time for some positivity! >☆<
I’m happy to report that my mindset and health for 2020 is starting to improve! I have lost 5 pounds over the past month, started going swimming again as of this week and plan to cross train at home. I now have a Fitbit to monitor my daily activity and ultimately I must keep a more mindful eye on my diet (Christmas biscuits are finally gone!).
In the meantime I would really love to start streaming games again (Twitch or YouTube?) and have more upbeat cute geeky posts and reconsider the podcast as a monthly one.
We are in the day and age of constant media consumption so thanks for sticking with my irregular updates – as few and far between as they may be! Thanks so much for taking the time to read this and all the best for 2020! Bring it on!
Raye x
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